It is 5:30 in the morning
She gets off from the jeepney
No one is around
Everything is still dark
except for the light posts
She walks in the silence of the dawn
She hears only her footsteps
She now sees few people walking
in the direction of the building
where she is going
She just keeps on walking
while looking into that
long pavement
Five more minutes before
she arrives into the office
A memory flashes in her mind
She was still studying
She was full of excitement, hopes,
and dreams
Now, she is walking alone
going to her workplace
All the excitement, expectations, and
hopes fade away
All of those thoughts she had
for her future flew and run away
This is reality
She starts to question her existence
The energy she is supposed to have
left her already just
before she starts the day
Her brain tells her legs, just keep on going
“I lost my identity”
She is just another human being
paid to do a job
stuck in a routine,
eight hours a day,
six days a week
“I’m still breathing,
I’m still alive”
This, she keeps on telling herself
but, it’s as if she fell
into a dark, deep hole
trying her best to survive,
climb up, and reach that
open and wide space
where she can breathe and be free
where she can be alive
where the excitement, hopes,
and dreams are restored
Moving closer to the entrance,
she is about to enter again
this structure, a box, with a group
of people following orders and will
be doing the same thing over and
over again for the rest of their lives
Her spirit wants to break free, but
for now, it needs to abide and be tamed
Her bones lost its vigor
The strength of her body is like
that of a sick person
Her mind accumulated high levels of
anxiety and stress
Her face has become a wilted rose
Her soul has become a fallen dry leaf
but, her heart is still dreaming..
A voice inside her is still dreaming
“I have to fight for this dream”
The voice says, “Expect a mediocre life
if you will do nothing about your dreams
and continue living within the norm”
There is no other time, but now
You are meant for greater things
Go and follow your heart
and so after few days,
she made a decision
It’s now or never
She gave the letter
She didn’t prolong the agony
it was a resignation letter